Hello humans. je m’appelle Ciaran Callam and I’m a sugar addict. For as far back as I can remember I’ve been literally, irrefutably and undeniably addicted to the sweet tasting white poison we all love to cram into our food. I can’t bear to think about how much money I’ve spent on candy, chocolates, and other forms of junk throughout my life because I know it’s a figure that would horrify me to see written on paper. You see; I’ve spent countless hours gorging my face on delicious carcinogens and while I’ve got to admit that these form some of the happiest memories of my life, the fact remains that I am addicted and that something desperately needs to change. I’ve done a lot of research into the harms of sugar and now that I know just how toxic it is to my health, I can’t justify putting it into my body anymore. There’s also the fact that I’ve been feeling the negative effects of having sugar in my diet for a few years now. Whenever I eat sugary things, my thoughts and memory get hazy as all hell, my hayfever kicks into 5th gear, I feel physically sick and my vision actually deteriorates. Tis time for a change; so for the next 30 days I’m going cold turkey to once and for all beat my lifelong sugar addiction.
Wish a brother luck!
Days number 9-13
It’s been a few days since my last post which I again apologise for, but bloody hell the holiday season has laid waste to my productivity. I’ve had so much on in the past week that I’ve not really been able to get much of anything done and it means that updates to both this challenge and 100 Women in 50 Days have suffered as a result. On the plus side I have continued to eat really well over the Christmas period which really is the main thing. I’ve held true, stayed strong and refused to waiver, well mostly. I did have 3 Cadburys Celebrations and 2 Ferrero Roches a couple days ago, but besides that, it’s been green tea instead of coffee with milk; and turmeric and wheat grass smoothies instead of cookies and mince pies.
I’ve been doing really well and truth be told I’m not only starting to feel healthier but I also think I’m mentally sharper. But having said that, I’m not too clear on just how much mental clarity I’m currently experiencing, is that clear? Maybe I’m imagining it but right now I feel like my thoughts are a little more vibrant. But then again it’ll probably be another week or two before the feeling’s undeniable. In any event, I’m definitely feeling much more positive. The days of me fighting the urge to snap at loved ones seem to have gone, but I am starting to have cravings again.
They’re no where near as strong as they were when I started but they’re are there and lately they’ve been coming and going in spurts. It’s like there’s a conflict in my subconscious between the part of me that wants to kick this addiction once and for all and the part that wants me to bathe in an ocean of sickly treats forevermore.
I think that over all I’m headed away from addiction but it’s not a linear progression by any means. I feel kinda like a pendulum that swings back and forth between cravings and psychological freedom. And I also feel like each time the pendulum swings back into the craving zone it spends less time there and with less intensity than before.
I’m on the right track.